Reprise - Jan 22, 2005
In the instant that you love someone
In the second that the hammer hits
Reality runs up your spine
And the pieces finally fit
The reality is that, we’re getting older. the new year brought more than commitment and realization, it brought along reality check that life does not care to stop even when you choose to be idle at the moment. At times i feel that i just don’t have the time to do everything and everything. To choose and prioritize would be a luxury that i don’t mind having.
And sometimes I’m smothered with the fast-paced life that i don’t quite remember the journey to that destination that i kept arriving at.
People have moved on. Like coreya said, i quote “we used to bring along our girlfriends/boyfriends to this place. then we brought our wive and husband. but now, we bring our children to this playground…” unquote.
And i for once was feeling a little bit claustrophobic of the fact that everybody and almost everybody had moved one. And i am still right there, lost and still looking for that place called sanctuary. I’m still holding on to that invisible hand that sometimes chose to let go, once in a while, but always in time to save me from drowning too long.
Maybe, just maybe i’m not ready to move on. But someday i might want to, and i hope time is ready to be kind to me, that time around.
“and when i took that deep breath, things do get to slow down. i think the second you stop fighting, time is really on your side and you can go on being who you are..”
-JD, Scrubs Season 4 Episode 12, My Orcadial Infraction-
*Added 2009 : Close to heart, but I’m almost there. Trust me, i’m almost there